Me @ 30

8 0

For over a week I’ve been traveling Australia with some of my work peeps. There is a 15-hour time difference between Melbourne and Dallas so right now its 7:30am, July 7th in Melbourne, Australia (where I am) and it’s 4:30pm, July 6th back home in Texas.

Not only is that throwing me off, but also my own feelings towards my birthday are surprising me. For at least the past 6 months I have been eager and excited to turn 30. So much so that typically when people asked my age, instead of saying “I’m 29,” I’d answer, “I’ll be 30 in July.”

But today, now that it’s here (at least in Melbourne), I’m not as excited as I thought I’d be and I’m not sure why. It could just be that this time difference is throwing me or that I wasn’t woken up by my mother with her loud birthday song and dance…or maybe it’s because I can’t do my traditional birthday day dinner with my family tonight.

As cool at it sounds to turn 30 in Australia, it’s weird reaching a milestone apart from everything you call home.

Which leads me to what I think will be the heart of this post…

My priorities are changing.

I can see and feel it.

Things that once motivated me are no longer motivators.

The things I once desired in life, I no longer care about.

And the things I said I’d be okay in life with or without, are the very things I hope and pray for almost more than anything else.

More and more I’m growing comfortable, and confident, admitting these changes and I really believe God himself planted these new desires and perspectives inside me.

I know that around age 30 people get anxious for a solid career, a house, and a familly. They begin to worry if they’re getting too old to have kids and if their spouse will ever come. These desires seem to grow deeper while the discontentment seems to weigh heavier.

Personally, I don’t have any of those thoughts, feelings, or worries, I just feel “ready.” Not anxious, not impatient, just finally ready. Ready for all the new things God has planned for me to accomplish, whether it’s family, work, or ministry related.

This whole idea of readiness makes complete sense from a biblical perspective. Many people had major life changes and stepped into new positions of leadership and ministry at age 30:

  • Joseph was 30 years old when he became 2nd in command to Pharaoh: “And Joseph was thirty years old when he stood before Pharaoh king of Egypt. And Joseph went out from the presence of Pharaoh, and went throughout all the land of Egypt.” (Genesis 41:46)
  • The priests officially entered service at age 30: “From thirty years old and upward even until fifty years old, all that enter into the host, to do the work in the tabernacle of the congregation.” (Numbers 4:3)
  • David became King when he was 30 years old: “David was thirty years old when he began to reign, and he reigned forty years.” (2 Samuel 5:4)
  • Jesus officially started his ministry at age 30: Before this time, he worked as a carpenter and “grew in stature, wisdom, and favor with God and man.” “Now Jesus himself was about thirty years old when he began his ministry. He was the son, so it was thought, of Joseph (Luke 3:23)”

30 is a year divinely chosen by God as a launching pad.

I’m very thankful I haven’t gotten married, had kids, or progressed in too many other areas before now because I wouldn’t have understood the way God desires to use these things for His Kingdom expansion.

I wouldn’t have viewed everything in light of eternity and now that I do, there is no going back.

I no longer want to work to be the biggest and best.

I no longer want to be married for companionship or sex.

I no longer want to have kids just to see what they’d look like.

I no longer want to have a house just so I can decorate it and throw parties…although there will still be plenty of parties. :)

No, I desire to use these things to serve others and to bring people into the family of God. I desire to make disciples.

Many significant things happened during my 29th year of life, but I’ll highlight two significant things that happened during the last 30 days:

1) Godventures

I decided to go on a 30-day journey of Godventures where basically I followed God’s leading everyday, intentionally using my time, treasure (money), and talent for Him. I got off track about publically posting the stories by day 15, but I’ll make sure I get days 15-30 posted on the blog when I get a moment.

This whole experience totally changed the way I lived for those 30 days. I was so much more intentional, alert, and aware. I was more in tune and attentive to the voice of the Lord and as a result, I experienced some pretty special things. I’m now motivated to continue these Godventures as a normal way of life. It’s such a dope way to live. The world needs more people who will intentionally “Go with God” everyday and I intend to be one of those people.

2) Jesus & The Cross

Our team from Daystar came to Australia to attend Hillsong Conference. As amazing as the entire conference was, the thing that was the most impactful for me was on the very last night when we took communion.

I take communion every week at church, but for the first time in years, the Gospel became new, alive, and fresh again. I cried just thinking about the sacrifice, the pain and suffering, and the victory that came through the shed blood of Jesus Christ. And the fact that He did it by choice just takes the thought to an entirely deeper level.

He didn’t have to do this for us, but He did. He doesn’t have to do anything for us, but He does. And I am absolutely overwhelmed by this.

I’m so thankful that the gospel became alive again for me.

For it is the gospel that changes absolutely everything.

So to wrap this up…

I’m 30. I am 30. Yep, I’m 30.

My twenties were great. I traveled, I experienced a lot, I figured out a lot of things and I’m so extremely thankful for where I ended that decade— with a renewed sense of purpose, identity, and a deeper love for God and others.

I could not ask for anything more.

For this next year of life, I anticipate some major shifts— some comfortable, some uncomfortable, but all necessary.

Now that I’m at the end of this post, I’m honestly not even sure I explained everything clearly or correctly, but I know the work God is doing in my heart/life is something beautiful and I don’t ever want it to end.

I can’t help but be grateful and overwhelmed today.

Check out previous birthday posts:

Me @ 29

Me @ 28

Me @ 27

Me @ 26

Me @ 25

Me @ 24

Me @ 23

Me @ 22

  • Aleea Slappy
    July 7, 2015

    Happy 30th Kandita!!! What a great Post! More of God, more clarity, direction, and intentional living! Cheers

  • Monica
    July 7, 2015

    Happy birthday, lil sis! So excited for you and all that God is doing in your life today and all we’ve yet to see.

  • Aletha
    July 7, 2015

    Happy 30th birthday, Kandis! I’m thrilled for all that the Lord is doing in you! May He accomplish in you all that he has set out to do!

    • Aletha Miller
      July 7, 2015

      Happy birthday sis. I’m so proud to have watched you grow from afar over this last year. Your obedience to God in posting this journey is inspirational and will minister to so many people. Keep growing in Christ publicly. I look forward to watching you grow and as I have always said, I’m just a phone call away.

  • Faith Cannings
    July 7, 2015

    Praise God for your new season of readiness!! I know He will use you in a mighty way, because He knows that you will let Him. Happy Birthday and God bless!

  • marva
    July 7, 2015

    Happy Birthday Beautiful! !!

  • Tamara
    July 7, 2015

    Happy Birthday!! Love the Godventures.

  • Ruth
    July 7, 2015

    Happy birthday Kandis!